Hiatus

I haven’t been blogging in a while. I miss it, and I’m sorry to have gone on this long break. I had prioirities, or more like an active priority. Sophia has been growing like crazy (not that I’m conplaining)! She’s looking more like a toddler now, and left me wondering what happened to my wee little one just last year.

In a few days, she’ll turn one. She’ll be an official toddler, and I’ll be maudlin again. Recently, I’ve been having these private, dramatic moments where I think about my growing child and I feel like I’m missing something, like it’s all too fast. I’ve probably gone crazy, but that’s how I feel right now. Next thing I’ll know is that we’re prepping for her 7th birthday!

Anyways, back to blogging. Literally. Haha. Since her first birthday is coming up, I’ll be blogging a lot of things (so excited).

I have to end it here, and I’ll see you soon. Adieu!

xoxo, Mrs. Cruz ❤

p.s. You have to forgive my typos, I’m quite famous for them, but mostly because I’ve typed half of this with my other eye closed. I’ve been keeping abnormal hours since I became a mama, not to mention my amazing work shift (4 a.m. to 12 noon)!

 

Sick Sophia

Last Friday, we went to my husband’s home to spend the weekend there. Over the weekend, the weather changed dramatically. It went from cool to Philippine summer hot. My daughter gets clammy easily. When she’s out of range of an electric fan, she’ll start to get clammy. When she’s crying non stop, she gets clammy too.

Saturday night was exceptionally hot. We noticed Sophia coughing, but dismissed it since the intervals were far. Then come Sunday morning, she coughs every 5 minutes approximately. We took her to the nearest pediatrician and said that her lungs were clear. She prescribed anti histamines. Come Sunday night, she became fussy and we noticed a runny nose. Just this morning, she had watery eyes. These are symptoms of a common cold. So my parents took her to our pediatrician this morning while I went to work. I got an update when I arrived at the office. The doctor said the same thing, it was clear but she has to be under observation. I feel that this is all because of the sudden change of weather.

It’s sad because the other reason we had to take her to our pediatrician, is because she isn’t her usual bubbly self. She’s more fussy than usual. She didn’t smile this morning and it was as if she didn’t want to because she can’t. It breaks my heart. As a new mother, I’m crushed. If only she could pass whatever’s bothering her to me, I would gladly take it. But alas, we have to rely on medicines and a whole lot of prayers.

No hugs and kisses today, Mrs. Cruz </3

Missing Sophia

Ever since I got back to work, everyday I miss my daughter. There’s not one day I didn’t look at her pictures. It’s hard. I wish my maternity leave could’ve been longer. I wish I was still at home taking care of my crybaby. I always ask my mother to take pictures of her. They’re the only thing that keeps me going in this lonely place.

Another thing that I’m missing are her achievements. One day, I’ll go home and find out that she can already do this, do that, etc. It’s sad that even though I’m only in the office for 9 hours, with 2 hours and 30 minutes travel time, I’m still missing out on a lot of things.

If I had the choice to quit work, in a heartbeat I’d say yes. I’ll soon find that I will regret that decision. My mother warned me about staying at home, saying that I’ll regret it and I can get over missing Sophia.

I also thought of bringing her to work, and we’ll hang out at the lactation room. Of course, I’m kidding. I cannot possibly sneak her in. The moment she gets bored, she’ll cry. And when she does cry, the HRs who suddenly moved beside our workstation, will find out about the very young stowaway.

Sigh.

xoxo, Mrs. Cruz ❤

How I Knew

When I woke up this morning, I stared at my still sleeping offspring. I had a flashback to the time when I still didn’t know I was pregnant with Sophia. So I’m gonna share with you how I knew I was pregnant.

1. Weight
Before I found out, I was working on a night shift. When I started working on that shift last 2014, I had gradually gained some weight. But my weight gain come 2015 (when I got pregnant) was sudden. I attributed it to the shift, which was absolutely not the case.

2. Pulse
The elders in my family has this particular sign that shows one is pregnant, a quick pulse. I noticed this one too, may it be on my neck or in my wrist. My mother saw it while I was sleeping and became suspicious.

3. Missed Periods
Of course, the ever obvious sign one is pregnant. I’m quite shocked, really, that I didn’t consider being pregnant with my missed periods for two months. Maybe because I took a pregnancy test and it turned out negative (according to my bff who’s in med school, I had a false negative because I took it a week too early). After the negative result, I thought my missed periods were a sign I had PCOS. Apparently not.

4. OB Gyne
I scheduled a check up with an OB Gyne and she took a history. That’s when she took out a doppler (I didn’t know what it was before. Apparently, it’s used to hear a baby’s heartbeat). She also did an internal exam. I didn’t know before that she was checking me for pregnancy. So she requested an ultrasound. At that time I thought we were going to check for some weird growth in my reproductive organs. Little did I know, it was a different growth I’m gonna see.

5. Ultrasound
The one thing that can verify if one is pregnant, an ultrasound. It’s wonderful, isn’t it, how technology today can give us wonders, minus the negative side effects. I still remember the day of my first ultrasound. At the first glimpse of my uterus, the OB Gyne who did the ultrasound said, “You’re pregnant”. Those words forever changed my life. It was the first time I saw Sophia. She was the size of a pea pod and her heart was like a pea, only beating.

So you see, I was clearly clueless about my pregnancy. I only found out when Sophia was already 5 weeks (gestational age). And that, my dear friends, was how I knew I was pregnant with the greatest blessing I’ll ever receive.

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xoxo, Mrs. Cruz ❤

Pre Baptism Blues

One of a parent’s main responsibility is to establish a religion for their child. Brian and I, both being Roman Catholics, decided it’s time to have Sophia baptized. I was baptized in The Shrine of Mary, Queen of Peace or more popularly known as The EDSA Shrine. If you pass by EDSA often, you’re prolly familiar with the church. Some think it’s only a statue amidst the elevated highways of EDSA, only to find out that there is a church below. That being said, I asked Brian if we can have Sophia baptized in EDSA Shrine. He agreed. Being a very famous landmark, reserving a spot on weekends will require you to do it a month before. So last December 2015, we booked a date at the end of January this year.

That is why this coming Saturday, my daughter will join the Christian community and finally be a child of God. It sounds festive, but there’s still so much to do! The souvenirs needs to be displayed with ribbons, the balloons need to be tested, Sophia needs a photo shoot for the photo booth, I need to prepare a guest list, I need to make a few calls, remind the guests of the event (we didn’t have any invitation), and so much more I cannot remember at the moment.

I don’t have a project yet at work, so my idle time is spent planning, and planning, and more planning. I’m cutting it close, I know. The event is this Saturday, I have to report to work until Thursday (hopefully, if my leave for Friday is granted). Sigh. I’m known for procrastinating, but this is one thing I shouldn’t be rushing.

With hopes of having an awesome, successful, and blessed christening this Saturday, I end my post. See you!

xoxo, Mrs. Cruz ❤